December 2010
10 posts
Haunted.
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I’d live to see it break
It’s getting dark and it’s all too quiet
And I can’t trust anything now
And it’s coming over you like it’s all a big mistake
Woah, I’m holding my breath
Won’t lose you again
Something’s made your eyes go cold
Come on, come on
...
Wow.
I thought I loved him…
…and turns out he dropped everything we had because of some other girl. Hell if I know who it is.
I hate how I had to learn about this through his facebook.
Most recent status: “I could write a thousand letters and call 100 times a day.”
Whoever she is must be really special, because he told me how special I was to him, yet he never did anything...
Done.
Screw this. Screw everything. I don’t need you. I’ll just pretend from here on out. I’m fine. I’m ok. This ain’t nothing. I’ve been through worse. I miss you. I need you. I’m fine. This is it. This is really the end. I knew we walked this fragile line. But I never thought I’d live to see it break. It’s ok. I’m fine now. No more tears....
Enchanting.
This was me in August. The night I left the fairgrounds he texted me… I was wonder-struck. I was blushing the whole way home…
Enchanting. Taylor Swift.
There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes...
A Letter.
Everything I want to express to you is here. I listened to Taylor Swift’s album Speak Now all the way through and wrote down every line that was relevant to me. To how I feel about you, and how I feel about us, or how I felt in the past. It goes through our story, song by song. I put it in order. From the time I met you, to the present. Different emotions starting with the time I met you to right...
September.
Dear reader,
September.
Nothing. Not in the beginning, at least. We didn’t talk until September 17th, and that was the day I texted him, because I missed him. It was all of a sudden, like a pang in my chest. I didn’t even know what it was at first. It was pain, yes. But I didn’t know what caused it.
Coincidently my team and I were on the bus heading for a practice contest in Illinois. And so I had...
August.
I guess I will pick up from where I left off.
Which would be back to the boy.
That one I met over the summer.
The one who changed everything.
He changed the way I go through life, practically. I’m constantly thinking about him, it’s not something I can control. If I am not completely preoccupied with something else, he is in the forefront of my mind. Even if I am preoccupied,...
