January 2011
16 posts
Something's Gotta Give.
I promise I’m over you. But I wish you would’ve had the decency to tell me what was going on. When you asked me what would happen to us if someone else ever came into our lives, I should’ve known there was someone else. I told you that we should just be honest with each other, right? If you felt like you could talk to me about anything, why couldn’t you talk to me about...
Easy.
As far as he knows, it’s easy going out on Friday night. Easy every time I see him now I can smile, live it up the way a single girl does. But what he don’t know is how hard it is to make it look so easy.
A Little Bit Stronger.
I woke up late today, still feel the sting of the pain
But I brush my teeth anyway
Got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger
Ridin’ in the car to work, and I’m tryin’ to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio
Stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for a minute, but then I changed it
I’m gettin’ a little...
About Time.
I should’ve seen past his words. But that doesn’t matter anymore, because all it was is gone, and even though I miss him, I’m going to move on. Damn right I’m gonna live my life, and I don’t need anyone to drag me down, either. It’s time I stood up for myself. It’s time that I didn’t do what everyone expects me to do. I’m a hell of a lot...
Take a deep breath.
It’s all going to be okay. I can see that now.
Everything.
Dammit… I cried today.
Driving home, all by myself, I was telling everything I wanted to tell him to the empty road. I let myself go, I wasn’t in control…. I need to be more careful.
Healing.
“Sometimes I forget what living’s for, And I feel my life through my front door. And I’ll be there, Oh I’ll be home again… All the empty disappears, I remember why I’m here. Just surrender and believe, I fall down on my knees… hello world.” -Lady Antebellum
Tomorrow’s the day. This weekend I’ll find out if I’m going to be okay. I...
“While I was holding on all you did was let go.”
Scared.
I’m going to the camp where everything happened in October in two days. It scares me to think that he won’t be there. And it terrifies me to think of the things I’ll feel going back there. I haven’t cried in almost a month, and that’ll probably change after this weekend. I love that place with all my heart, but now, it’ll always hold a very special… very...
October.
October was the month that I will never forget. Not for the rest of my life.
October 8th was the first day I had seen him in 2 months, almost exactly. The weekend before, we had both found out that our applications to be counselors at a leadership camp were accepted, and I had only one week before I would see him. That week was probably the longest of my entire life. I found out on a Friday, and...
Still.
It’s 3 a.m. and I can’t sleep at all. Wonder where you are tonight, And do I ever cross your mind?
20 Things.
Taylor Swift’s “Speak Now” album.
Big sweaters.
Lightning.
Summer.
Passing notes.
Strawberry shortcake.
That first kiss feeling.
Crying.
Smiling.
Carnival rides.
Dark nights with twinkling lights.
Sleepless nights.
Traffic.
Rascal Flatts.
Air guitar.
Blushing.
Three + page text messages.
Those damn blue eyes.
Lady Antebellum.
A broken heart.
Only me.
Boy it’s been all this time and I can’t get you off my mind, and nobody knows it but me. I stare at your photograph, still sleep in the shirt you left. And nobody knows it but me…
My friends think I’m moving on, but the truth is I’m not that strong. But nobody knows it but me. I kept all the words you said in a box underneath my bed, and nobody knows it but me.
I...
